only Love is REAL

She just made her decision, to cut off a 3 year dragging, suffering relationship with this man. He couldn't make the decision to choose whether to be with her or with my best friend, ST. Simply a bloody fucking useless man. don't get me wrong, i am talking about a straight and 2 girls. No matter how good or how big his d*ck is, sudahlah, this is just not fucking making sense. I'm happy for her, well it's hard, at least about the so many cryings, feeling downs talking over the phone with me about this PISSED-OFF relationship has come to an end. She is really a good girl, she doesn't deserve that kind of sufferings, he just didn't love her enough, that is not real;
Only the Love is REAL.

As I was talking to Harry Saturday night, I said I might seriously plan a trip to Europe soon in May. Yes, I will see him in Netherlands. I was told not to hold too much expectations - NO, we have been keeping in touch the way like now for many months, it has been good; I appreciate all the efforts he did, remember my birthday, Valentine's, reporting to me his social life, guys he meets... I agree that things will be different when we meet, of course, simple enough 'cause we have learnt more about each other for the over past 9 months. I just had this feeling that could it be he was trying to tell me he's not telling the truth for perhaps partly what he had told me about him?

I had this holding back emotion, in the middle of the conversation with him.
The conversation ended as what it was used to be; the holding back emotion didn't interrupt the friendly flow of the conversation.
Yes, we are so far away. Perhaps he tells the truth all the time - but how can I guarantee they are real enough?

The realm lies on the real-time-practical real life. And Love should be able to be real enough to be experienced in all these aspects.

Coming back to myself, actually for a real relationship, I think for such a distance, Harry and I have done it well - to upkeep it. He is apparently afraid of whether he will hold more expectations than I do that might disappoint him? Not feasible enough I will fly over there just because of him. he can fly over if he wants. that will get us 'real' real.

We just don't love each other enough, that's the fact. so we're friends. friends.

Ony Love is REAL.