GURU SAYS

B came Weds night. The bald guy. Right after his work.
We watched the stupid Scary Movie again, and since he said he is a shy person so I made the first move again, right after the movie. I didn't know what did he have in his mind, anyway he chose to come up to the apartment and he would have expected sex to happen.
When it was still in the middle of the movie, around 12.30am, I got a sms. I hardly got sms at this hour. Who'd it be? The only person could be it's H. It was H.
A simple sms said he couldn't be online replying my mail I sent the day before. a warm regards.
A little voice in my heart whispered: slut. Oh come on, H is not here, I would love to do it only with him if he is here. And the fact is I need sex somehow, I'm not hunting high and low for sex anyway. Excuses that made me feel better.
As what Guru T said. He said I would meet somebody, which by the time he asked me I hadn't. Then I met B. He said there would be possibilities for further relationship with him. I don't know how I am going to deal with my feelings. Would it be fair? Nothing is fair. You know your feelings towards H but H is not here; you would still chat once in a while, move around.. by any chances meeting up people would still happen.
I don't treat B like a fuckbuddy. I don't do fuckbuddying anyway.
You will be with H, one day, not near future. anyhow. Guru T said. Things will find its way. Don't think too much.
H somehow knows that. But keeping the faith is a long way.Again nothing comes easily. Perhaps like what Guru T said, if that's my Karma,
it will be inevitable.