Diversities

I was talking to a yet 2 months-to-go 17 year old boy regarding a sex topic. A virgin still, as he told me so. I guessed I acted so badly that I actually asked him twice to make sure what I heard was right. What makes it so difficult to believe that he is still virgin? For god sake he is not even 17 year old. Why should I doubt it? He is saving up his virginity for someone he will be really in love with. Oh I had that idea before… like ages back. That even sounded like a fairy-tale to me now. Guessed I have slutted enough. Oh come on please get real. On second thought, after couple of days, I talked to him, J, telling him what I really felt about it. Obviously he is at a different generation, he speaks ok, he gets ok exposure, he is not too naïve, it’s just he hasn’t experienced the sex. He will, sooner or later. I told him I have started that way, experienced the gay life in a way, sex sometimes happens just like clicking your finger, a matter you want it or not. If you have thought of it you don’t want the sex simply happens like that, so don’t do it.

One time I read an article about there’s a rise of number, showing people in city in America actually allocate more time for family than previously. A change of values. Being gay doesn’t mean you live out a gay life style. Stereotypes of a gay life style, subculture of gay living, these sort of things, anyhow, it’s nothing very much we can talk about besides club scenes and crusing spots. Perhaps you will ask what else do I ask for? I think it is limited here – between a gay activist and complete closet gay, there is actually not much spaces we can live out as a gay person in this society, in an Asian city like KL. Gay community is a miniature of the whole big society itself, all sort of people with different profession, different preferences… but much compact, and the chances of getting impact from each other are much higher. Very much likely the community is not big enough, whereby the different voices will very much likely be treated as aliens – or he is just trying to be pretentious.

A horoscope analysis I did sometime ago, it says Aquarian strongly believes in fairness which is very to me. I read Mimi’s latest post, some people choose to be cynical; I allow disagreements but it doesn’t mean I agree with his view. If he can’t accept why I can allow disagreement but not accepting it, I guess the best is to avoid a controversy conversation with someone.

I will hope to see diversities. No matter how, there will be always actions of search of love, search of sex, at some part of this town.